Way past time, way past now.

Let the clock wind up, as the days continue to go. 

I see an opening where it all was. Something that written, which is lost out of nowhere.

I still believe, we can be written, well at least for the best. A memory that makes us smile of something that 

has become a part of us. I can never forget, and it will live countless times in my head no matter what i do. 

Every thought is significant, though not to everyone who takes a share of it.

Foolish, yes it will sound as it is. But, a grain of sand will remind me of the grandest scheme of things.

I shall not believe, i shall be just the way i wanna be.

It shall wish us well. I look up to everything that grows. Just as how high it can become.

I cannot imagine. 

Let me recall, i was happy then. Yet, i still choose to be happy now.

Everything, it seems like it was a turn of the card. I suppose it was not. 

We follow what we want to be. That's how it goes.

For every inch of thought that is written, jumbled words and random notes.

I will not keep this to myself, but i still do, think of you.

 

Rainy days

For these past few days, the rain has been pouring hard and it somehow left us something to think upon.

The stranded people at taft knows how cold and hard it is to cross the waters at that time.

We took the liberty of staying to a safer place where we could call home for just a few hours.

It felt like shit crossing to a safer ground, but it was worth the experience. By the time we got ourselves comfy, we ate and talked for hours about things that we can laugh ourselves about. :)

The cheese was awesome, the movie was great. Friends, you were the awesome-st people that night. :-bd

Thanks guys, we had a good one. :)

Post: If ever you get to read this.

I try to believe that everything is clear. I want to, but then no one else should try to speak before i say this.

People screw up for certain reasons. But, this. This. It is not the clearest cut of things. There are a lot of things that people don't know, yet they insist that they do. What happens if every time we go to this, and they (these people) do it again. I guess, go figure.

I want this to be okay. Even though it's all over. And if ever you do read this, try to think of as well. 

We try not to be one-sided at these unresolved problems.

I hope this does us well.

It's raining again.

The moment i woke up this morning, it was pretty hot and i have no clue when would this end. I realized that i was sweating myself so much that i've went outside the house a couple of times just to cool myself from the scorching weather. I've come to listen to this song a while ago when the ipod was playing. It was somehow relevant to what the weather has turned into. From real hot to rainy cold weather, straight jacket feeling by the All-American rejects was the one playing inside my head for that time. Somehow, when we refer to the feeling, it's something that is constricting, which you have to let it all out. I can relate to that, and i cringe whenever that happens.

Oh come on, haha.

I guess we shall carry on.

No plans

Hi, it's been a while since i blogged about anything since there are a lot of things to do right now. It's good to know that i have opened up my time for at least this moment. As i were, there's really nothing to begin with. I had a lot of plans, but it seems like only a few worked for me. This has something to do with just showing up and doing whatever i can with the situation. Here i am, still wondering what maybe the reason for all the things that are not easily paying off. Will there be anything in store for me if i become more persistent in what i do? I don't know. I want answers, may it be bits and pieces or as a whole. If i look for it, there would be a big chance that only the tip of it is seen. Haha. I think it would be better if i just move along the way, i'd find what i'm looking for.

I would take every risk, every waking opportunity just to, smile and just have fun.

My life that has no map, now has its own way of telling its direction along the way.

When it rained, it was 4.

Today, it rains and the water pours over the roof of our house. I just come to know that i have been sleeping the longest hours since the week ended. Here comes a point in my life that i just stare out of nowhere and think about anything that has occurred to me. I mean anything. I felt that my heart skipped a beat a lot of times, i don't know if they're positive or negative to begin with. The feeling is there, yet there is no confirming of what is. I speak plainly about anything, which is hard. This has drawn me to think about it a couple of times. Thoughts are recurring, it feels like something that i have forgotten for a long time suddenly comes back in a flash. Vague, yes, they are. Me and my thoughts. It contradicts how the world raised me. A mixed tape playing at its wrong side. But there is one thing that is not blur in me, that is my determination to do whatever it takes no matter what. What gives me the will to be myself is the paradox of living in a sad world, yet i get to go around smiling like nothing is there to make me feel sad.

P.S.

This log, i just wanted to do things at little steps. Everyday, we learn and grow with the notion of not knowing what comes next.

This uncertain.

Going to a direction where you don't know where you're at, but probably certain what you're gonna be having. Feelings of positive and anything that makes your heart beat.